Food.. I can't stop thinking about it! I am obsessed with something that shouldnt be obsessed over.

I originally realised I was obsessed 8 months ago. I stepped on the scale and it showed 235 lbs (I am 6'3" so I wasn't THAT huge). At that moment I decided I was going to lose the weight. I was dead set on attaining my goal weight of 200 lbs that I sometimes stopped eating entirely. I became anorexic.

So I reached my initial goal of 200 and I saw no change (personally), so I decided to lower it even more. I reached 185 and even that wasnt enough. In the end my final weight was 162 lbs. I lost more than 60 lbs over a span of 3 months. Somehow I managed to stop starving myself and to eat normal food, but eating normally is something I cannot do. For some reason or another I cannot stop eating when I am full.

So here I am.. I feel like such a slob. Here comes the holiday food. Maybe I should just start my "diet" again on January 1st.